I personally have been in the worse funk for the past couple of months. During this period I only knew I was uncomfortable with my church and those in leadership. I had the most foreboding feelings of betrayal, deception and loneliness. Every time I thought I put my finger on the thing I thought was causing my spirit unrest it only escaped to leave me in a place deeper than before. Standing there in my hole looking up to see the sun on Sunday the earth caved in on top of me. What caused the cave in was unexpected and has caused more pain then I can share and left me on a spiritual island of sorts.

Close friends are aware of the trial before me, but even in all their comfort and willingness to be there for me; I am desperately alone. I need any and all prayers for peace and wisdom. I need to find the ability to trust those around me once more, trust the church, and my relationship with God.

My Prayer (Mullins/Big Daddy Weave song):
Sometimes my life just don’t make sense at all
When the mountain looks so big
And my faith just seems so small

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shakin’ like a leaf
You have been King of my Glory
Won’t you be my Prince of Peace